Christmas to Easter

Lately we have noticed that we are feeling very awake sexually and in need of more of it. Almost to the point of ridiculous. We have also been thinking a lot about the children we have lost in the past.
Then it occurred to me that babies conceived in December /Christmas are ready for sacrifice come Easter time. Even at this late stage in our life, we still have the programming inside us to keep producing for the group. I am glad we cant conceive anymore. It makes things easier, and means we don't have to deal with the loss of a child again.
The hard part is knowing that the programming is still there and affecting us still. I hate it.

Monument to forgotten Children

Earlier this year we attended a remembrance service for servicemen and women who have served and died in the wars. There is a monument standing there, with plaques which contain many names. It was a moving service. Remembering the fallen. Remembering those who have given their lives for others. But who remembers the fallen children, the ones who, too, gave their lives so that others may live. We are one of those children that lived, ( most of the time we have no idea why we made it and others didn't), we saw so many other children and adults be killed, some even for us, for the mistakes we made or to merely make a point. These children/babies were born into these groups, usually as a result of rape of their mother. They are used for sacrifices and in threats to control the mother so she will do as she is told. Many do not even make their first birthday. Most of these children's births were never registered. There is no evidence they even lived. There names will never appear on any official government records. These children are brutally killed in the name of sadistic pleasure and control. Most spend their lives, from birth to death, being raped, beaten and abused.To make it to puberty is an achievement many would never know. There is no mercy for these children, they are treated as property to be used and abused as needed by those in control. Many are kept in cages, in conditions we would not accept for an animal. They never know love. There are millions of these children that have died in these groups.
We lost 3 children to these people, (We hope that 4th is still alive somewhere) their names not recorded, there lives not mentioned. But we remember them, and we acknowledge their existence.
On the day when all soldiers are remembered, we take the time to go to the little monument we have made in our garden, and we remember the fallen children. The ones sacrificed so that we, and many others, may live. And we thank them for what they have done.
PLEASE REMEMBER THEM.


For Angel, Cody, and Sarah. Your names are written here. We remember you!

Electrocution

Pain, it is our body's warning system that something is wrong, and to move that body part away from that which is causing the pain. The end result is that you don't do that again, as you have learned that it causes an unpleasant or painful experience. 

For those who wish control and train children, this is a major bonus. If they do something you don't like, you cause them pain. If they continue to do it, you make the pain more severe until eventually they get the message. 

Sounds a simple enough practise, parents have been using this tactic for years. A good smack and the child should learn never to do that again. But what if you want to teach the child something way more sinister. What if you want to make it very clear to the child that no matter what happens , they are NEVER to speak about what is happening to them, What if you want to convince a child of a lie that they are not accepting. What if you want to teach them that resisting rape will incur serious consequences. What if you are trying to program a child's brain into behaving a particular way at a set time.

Basically what if you want control over this child, One very effective mechanism is electrocution. It is easy to access, can leave few marks, and with a little knowhow can be rigged up to give only the exact amount required to get the point through to the child. 

There is book I am in the process of reading called 'The Body Remembers'. It speaks about how the body holds a memory of the trauma it has been through. Much like how someone who has been through physical abuse will flinch when someone raises their hand near them. 

We know we have been electrocuted, our body randomly jolts, not uncommon to movements many make when relaxed. But the other day we relived a full body electrocution. We were lying on the couch watching TV, something must have triggered it. Our muscles tensed, tighter and tighter until our body was arched back in a tight and tense arc, shaking. While I couldn't feel the pain (that has obviously been stored in another part of our memory) I could not escape this feeling, My mind was clear I knew what it was, but my body was working on its own, It lasted for maybe 15 seconds, I don't remember exactly, and then our body relaxed back to its normal state. At that point I knew for sure that what I suspected was true. They had used electrocution on us.