It Hurts, Can You See?

I want the pain to be on the outside like it is on the inside. I want to be able to see that it is real. I want to see the blood and know what i have done. It's screaming on the inside, we are ripping ourselves apart, but on the outside no one would know, not even me.

Are We Safe?

Someone inside is setting of programs using codes while the body is asleep. I hear them in that twilight between awake and asleep. I can't remember the codes they say and i don't know what they mean, but i know it can't be good. We fall asleep easily but spend the night in fitful sleep arguing. In the morning no one wants to face the outside world. I wish i knew what was happening but they won't tell me. I feel like a pawn in someone else's game.