Trigger Warning

Trigger Warning.
This Blog is intended to be the full truth about our lives. It will be graphic. Please show self care when reading it.
Do not proceed if you find Child sexual and physical abuse distressing.

Tuesday, December 12, 2017

Christmas to Easter

Lately we have noticed that we are feeling very awake sexually and in need of more of it. Almost to the point of ridiculous. We have also been thinking a lot about the children we have lost in the past.
Then it occurred to me that babies conceived in December /Christmas are ready for sacrifice come Easter time. Even at this late stage in our life, we still have the programming inside us to keep producing for the group. I am glad we cant conceive anymore. It makes things easier, and means we don't have to deal with the loss of a child again.
The hard part is knowing that the programming is still there and affecting us still. I hate it.