Lately we have noticed that we are feeling very awake sexually and in need of more of it. Almost to the point of ridiculous. We have also been thinking a lot about the children we have lost in the past.
Then it occurred to me that babies conceived in December /Christmas are ready for sacrifice come Easter time. Even at this late stage in our life, we still have the programming inside us to keep producing for the group. I am glad we cant conceive anymore. It makes things easier, and means we don't have to deal with the loss of a child again.
The hard part is knowing that the programming is still there and affecting us still. I hate it.
