Want To Go Back

As we get closer to Easter the flashbacks are increasing. We are feeling unsettled and depressed. We can't seem to get ourselves out of it. Some want to go back into the abuse. We want to feel the pain, the beating, they want it to hurt, we want to be hurt. We want to be ripped apart. They have even made plans of how to do it. Who to talk to. Not our old Handler, someone harder someone who will show no mercy. Just take us away so we don't have to be here anymore. Just take us to where we belong. Make it hurt until the pain goes away. I want to feel, i'm tired of being numb. JUST MAKE IT HURT!