Complacency program.

I remember being often in charge of younger children. Most of the others my age had moved on, but we were left with the group of children younger than us, our sisters age..about 3/4 years younger than us. We were there to help with them and help take care of them while the men did their stuff. The younger children trusted us more than the men so it was easier to make us do it. We knew what was happening but we never did anything to stop it. Now we know why.

We were subject to different levels of mind control and programming. They used this to get us to do was they wanted. Once programmed, we were merely robots under their control. The Complacency Program is one used for children like us. It is designed for those who will be helping with the children. We know what will be happening to them and under normal circumstances there would be a level of wanting to do something to stop it. With the complacency program, when our thoughts of revenge or attack of perpetrators gets to a certain level, the program kicks in. Over us comes this sense that all is fine, we forget that which is going on front of our eyes, and we see it as mildly important. We don't see the need to take action, for no real reason other than we become complacent. If we try to resist this program, we feel ill, dizzy , confused and are finally thrust into sleep, so we can awaken with the belief that every thing is fine and we have nothing to worry about. It is a lie, and a cover up, but a brilliant one from their standpoint. From ours it is debilitating, disabling and heartbreaking. I have always wondered why we never seemed to fight too hard if an issue arose and  why we would cave in so easily instead of fight. Why, when faced with a known perpetrator, we, without thought or intent, switch to a compliant and friendly person. I always believed that in the end we would go crazy and lose it at them, and that is why we held such tight control over everyone in our system. But now I know its not. We are left feeling helpless and unable to protect those we love most. They have programmed us into helplessness, and we despise it.

This is not my life, but i have to live it.

I Hate Him!

Maurice Elliot, I hate him, I hate everything about him. and most of all I hate the people who cant see what he has done. Those who fall for his lies and deception. We will never be free because of them. When will we stand up against the those who pursue the abuse and destruction of out children. It is their lives we sacrifice, and our dignity, for those who refuse to protect a child, will themselves never be free. Have we lost our humanity, or did we never really have it to start with.
Scarlet children, lost in a sea of blood, never to be free, because of you and me!!

Tainted Blessings

I have very few good memories of my father. But one has been with me all these years. When we were tired and couldn't sleep, my father would come into my room, he had a special way of getting us to sleep and make us feel it was all ok. It never took too long and we would be fast asleep. For years, we have found this comforting and as usual sleep is never far away. When we are sick, as we are  now, we long for someone to come and sooth me and make me feel loved and comforted, like he used too. It is one of the few comforts we have taken from our childhood into adult life, but now it is gone too. You see my father, Maurie, didn't just want to come and visit us in the middle of the night for his own comfort, no that was too simple and no profit to him. He had bigger plans for us. He could profit from us and make money and friends from what we would be forced to do. But children can be difficult, they will resist and tell others about what is going on. There is really only one way to keep them under your control. Mind Control and programming. Getting a very young child, hypnotising and programming her mind so that you have total control over her actions. With the right codes you can get her to do whatever you have programmed her to do. And yes before you ask, that includes ANY deed they wanted us to do. Mind control at its most evil.
My father had been doing this with us from the time we were a very small baby. What we are learning now is some of the triggers and codes used to set things off. How my dad used to get us to sleep was one of them. Yes we went to sleep quickly and easily, but only because it was part of the programming so that he could have his way with us. Suddenly one of our great comforts is taken from us and we are forced again to see our life as it was and is, in another totally different light. Did he ever do anything for or to us merely out of love, or was everything just part of his evil scheme to abuse and profit from us? Little by little, we are learning that we only have the future and the life we can build for ourselves now. It will always carry the weight and trauma of the past, and we will never be free from his clutches. But bit by bit we will fight to find a life for us in a world that doesn't understand nor accept the truth of who we are. Merely a pawn in a truly evil and sadistic game.