MK Ultra mind control

This article is thorough and true.  It is also triggering to read.  It has taken its several years to be able to read through it all. 

https://vigilantcitizen.com/hidden-knowledge/origins-and-techniques-of-monarch-mind-control/

I had a dream:
Mon 10 Sept, 3.30am, had a dream in which mum was talking to Annette  how she thought the MK Ultra programming had done the most damage to my brain.
Then we went to a hall with a big group of people, like a conference, to watch it being done to other children. I knew some of them there. I didn't know his name them but I did learn it later on. Alex, Denise's ex husband. He was in his late childhood early teens. I was about the same age.

Mum and Annette knew.

We are bloodliners, generations of involvement ... dad, his dad.

Some things never leave.

Lying in the centre of a double bed.  My arms tired to each of the headboard corners.  My new white dress with red spots on. 
I can see the bright day light shining through the wide windows near the end of the bed. The door to the left of the room.  One man, ushering in the men, one at a time,  to do with me as they wish.
He tried to be friendly as he approached the bed.  Making comment on my pretty new dress.
I felt restrained,  scared, confused and unprotected.
I was 3 years old.

To this day,  I can lie in bed and still feel as if my arms are stretched out and restrained.  That sense of fear rises in my stomach.  For a moment my arms feel as if they can't move,  held by remembered ropes.  But then I pull them down and remember it is a time long gone.  I rub my wrists to relieve the sensation of the tight rope.  
I am 50 years old now.
Some things never leave.

A blessing?

The blind cannot see what is before them,  and the deaf cannot hear. 

A blessing, or a curse.  I think it all depends on what is before you.
Some inside have wished to be blind or deaf.  It has taken some time for me to figure out why.  Now I know.  The blind cannot see the horrors and the deaf cannot hear the screams.
We were neither blind nor deaf,  I guess we saw and heard it all.