Trying to get out!

Still struggling with these flashbacks and possible programming. Cant seem to get out of my head and into the world around me. Terribly dissociated. So many inside seem to want to tell their story all at once and I am having a hard time getting through to them that we need to slow every thing down. It is like I am much closer to them now and can hear them better but cant seem to distance myself from them any more. It takes so much energy just to get through the day.  I am worried.