Mr White had said so!

I remember standing in the school yard,  I was only 5 years old.  The other children were playing.  But I couldn't.  I could barely move.  I was in shock. I felt so strange,  I didn't know what to do.  I hurt, a lot.  My vagina felt swollen and so sore.  That whole area felt swollen and sore.  It felt hard to walk.  I just stood still,  really not knowing what to do.  There were no tears,  I couldn't cry. What had happened to me, and why. All the other children seemed oblivious, playing and laughing.  I felt I was going to die. I remember I'd come from another part of the school, where the older kids were allowed.. 

What do I do, where do I go. The swelling and pain made me stand with my legs apart.  The world seemed a different place,  it was like time stood still. I must have made it back to class,  Mrs Edward's class I think.  It was a separate building from the others.  I dont remember the rest of the day.  I just remember feeling the shock and a lump in my throat like I wanted to cry but couldn't.  I couldn't let anyone know.  Mr White had said so.