A friend of mine just put this up on their facebook. I really like it. It expresses well some of the feelings when it comes to self harm. The need to feel bad, to hurt, to make ourselves feel like 'they' used to make us feel. We deserve it and even if we partly feel that we dont, deep down we do and we need it to feel right. We havent felt the need to self harm for a few days now, its been really nice. We havent felt very multiple either, too busy doing outside world stuff. But today things changed. A friend is going through a really hard patch today and we had a bit of a situation. Anyway it has left her in a bad way and made us feel very vulnerable. Sometimes it seems the only way to make it go away is to cut it out. We hate ourselves for being weak and injured and that what is inside us has so much power. Some days I just want to beat myself senseless, to make these feelings of worthlessness go away.
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